Chasing the wind…

Lord knows sometimes it’s hard to keep up with me. Just think how hard it is for me, LOL! This past year has been one of the most challenging to date, emotionally, spiritually, physically and financially. But you’ll never hear me complain. Not because I don’t want to, but because there’s nothing to complain about. Everyone struggles. Everyone has pain. So even though you won’t hear about it, you’ll know times are tough when I stay silent for a while. No social media posts, no updates, no contact. It means I’ve broken out my kite to see which way the wind is blowing. It means I’m standing outside in the rain storm, face to the wind absorbing the earth’s energy and sending my prayers on the wind to be carried off along with the negative vibes that are halting my progress.

I’ve adopted a philosophy (technically two, I’ve always had them but made it known this past year). First is “This is my train. Get with the program and join the ride or get run over because this train has no stops.” The second one, this one much harder to express on occasion is “You Don’t Deserve Me” That second one has been applied much more often in the last two years than I care to admit. There are very few people in the world that know where I am at any given time on any given day. I may be working, helping a friend, or donating time to one thing or another. But here’s what I’m hardly ever doing….resting. So when I give you my time it’s because I love you. It’s never because I’m going to look at you and say “Now you owe me one.” With my time I give you everything I am. My talents, my knowledge, my experiences. Everything. But when, through their own insecurity, envy or jealousy, they choose to disregard me, I will not retaliate. Only grab my kite and let it chase the wind to our next destination.